Such a simple question, but such a complex answer. How can I sum up in just a few words what my trip was like?
I've gotten asked this question many many times since I've been home and I don't know exactly what to say or how much people want to hear about it. I can give the simple version, "It was incredible (or awesome, amazing, etc)! I had so much fun and got to see so many different things. In all I got to travel to 13 different countries." For some people that satisfies their curiosities, which is fine. For others they ask more questions... "What was your favorite place?" Again it's tough for me to answer that because there isn't just one. Within the first couple minutes I can feel out how much people want to talk about it and I enjoy answering their questions and sharing my experience! Even if I talked to someone about it for hours they wouldn't know it all. I especially get confused when people say "Tell me everything." I genuinely appreciate their interest, but where do I start? And if they want to know everything, they would be here for days. I love it when people ask me about my time abroad; it was one of the best experiences of my life :)
But what I find even more interesting than the questions people ask and the general interest they have in my trip is which people in my life didn't ask anything at all...
A lot of the times when I'm with my family or friends, we'll be doing or talking about something that reminds me of a certain random memory and I like sharing that spontaneous thought with them. It happens all the time when I'm by myself too; a memory will come to me and I'll smile to myself thinking about it.
It's hard to believe that I've been home for almost 2 months now. Even harder to believe I left for my trip abroad over 5 months ago. I remember all the anxieties I had before I left. The truth is I didn't fear the unknown, what was getting to me the most and making me upset was having to leave my family and boyfriend. Knowing too that communication would be limited and it would be even harder with the time difference of 6 hours. Even with those fears, I was beyond excited what this opportunity abroad would offer me. I was excited about the different experiences I would have and everything I would get to see. I know it sounds strange to some, but I couldn't wait to step outside of my comfort zone and do something completely different than the paths of others.
But no one warned me about how rigorous classes would be...
Yeah let's just say I had no clue that this would be my toughest workload and the classes would demand more of my time than any other semester. That's right, this was by far my toughest and most stressful semester. That contradicted everything I had heard before about studying abroad... "Oh, the classes will be so easy. You'll have no problem getting a 4.0 this semester." Uhhhh maybe it's that case with other study abroad programs, but ours was 21 credit hours (and some people had the option of 24). In all my previous posts I haven't mentioned anything about my classes, it may have seemed like it was one long vacation for me. But that's not true.
We were in class Monday-Thursday between 6 to 8 hours a day. Every Friday we had either a midterm or a final exam worth a huge percentage of our grade in the class. See each class was only two weeks. Two weeks to learn the material, read the book, do all the practice problems, and be finished with a course that normally takes a semester to learn and let the material sink in. It was nice that we only had one class to focus on at one time and that all 33 of my classmates were doing the same work, but I was always in exam mode. We'd start each new week with preparation for the huge exam we'd have in four days. And when we weren't in class, we were doing the homework and practice exams in our "free" time. During the weekdays, it was tough.
It was this way so we'd have our weekends free to travel! We never had any homework over the weekends besides reading so we could really be free to do what we wanted. The class schedule followed this: Intro to IT (two weeks long), then International IT (two weeks long). Then we had a 10 day traveling break before we did Intro to finance, then International finance. Another 10 day traveling break before Intro to management, then International management. Everything was super condensed to allow for these traveling breaks and weekends free.
It didn't help that I had no wifi in my apartment. I could not retreat to a silent room to get work done if I needed to use the internet. If I was in the Villa (the only building with wifi!), no matter where you were it was loud. I wish I could concentrate listening to my music, but I have a hard time with that. It was a hard studying situation for me.
Another thing to mention: during these intense weekdays, we also had to plan all of our traveling. And that could be (very) stressful sometimes as well. Plans getting mixed up, who you're going with, what you're going to do at each place, booking hostels and train reservations, and on and on. Stress management was absolutely crucial. It was also time consuming to write all of these blog posts. Each post took hours for me to write and I had to try to squeeze in time during my day to write them.
One way that I've always been able to relieve my stress is going to the gym. Well there was no such thing in Riva San Vitale. And even if there was, it was almost impossible to have free time to workout. The program offered nothing for people who are into fitness. No gym, no tread mill, not even a couple free weights. The town itself did not have a gym either; I would have paid extra if they did! Being healthy and working out is very important to me. Besides running, I had to improvise at times using a huge pot as a medicine ball, the couch ottoman for dips, etc. This is the one thing the program really should invest in.
I just said a bunch of things that are negative. It's true: classes were tough and stress was high. But I look back on it all now and am so proud of how I overcame all of it. I made it through my classes with good grades, even when I had to do school work for 10 hours a day, write my blog in the time I had between, plan my trips, try to work out, stay in touch with those I love half way around the world, and the list goes on. If something got me upset, I only let it get to me for a couple of days and then I forced myself to move on. I wasn't going to let anything or anyone put a damper on my time abroad. I solved all those stressful situations that popped up planning trips and during the trips themselves. And I made the most of every opportunity that presented itself, even if it didn't go my way.
What I will take away from it all is the feeling of confidence in myself and my abilities. And this is my favorite part of the trip. I have truly grown as a person. I have changed in such a positive way. My independence has increased and I feel self assured. It's the best feeling.
Oh and how spectacular it was!! 13 different countries!! 28 cities!! The fact that I've been there and done all that is still unbelievable to me. At times it seems like a dream.
What more can I say about all the places I went to. Every place was truly special and unique from the rest. People ask me all the time what my favorite place was. But oh man that's a toughie! I will say that as time went on and I became a more experienced traveler, I came to find I enjoyed the smaller cities better. Don't get me wrong, the big cities like Paris, Barcelona, and Vienna were incredible! But with the smaller cities like Lisbon, Prague, and Edinburgh I felt more relaxed and I didn't have to rush to see all the big sites. There was still a lot to see in these cities, but I was able to take my time seeing it all. I also felt more authentic culture in the smaller cities because they were not commercialized.
Also sometimes it was the places I knew hardly anything about that became my favorites. I'd go in with no expectations and come to find out Wow, this place rocks! I enjoyed the couple times I traveled by myself as well. It's very peaceful going at your own pace and I was able to blend in with the locals. It took me a while to find that group of people to travel with who really cared about my opinions and what I wanted to see, but when I did finally find them, it was some of the best times traveling with them too! And on top of all that, getting the opportunity to travel with my family was so wonderful. We had a great time and grew closer while enjoying the sites (and food!) together!
Like I said earlier, I had to deal with a lot of stress. What really helped me was going into every city's cathedral or church and saying prayers. Some people viewed them as a tourist destination, and I did as well but I also used it as time to talk to God. A time to take a step back from everything and just be with Him. It refreshed my spirit and made me feel better. Besides, how could I not feel rejuvenated surrounded by such beauty? Every cathedral/church was gorgeous.
Jeez... I loved it all! It's hard to find the right words. All I can say is I am so blessed to have been able to have the opportunity to travel like this. I got to see more of the world than I thought I ever would.
One place that will always hold a special place in my heart... my home: Riva San Vitale. The best little town there ever was. A couple bars, shops, houses, and that's about it. I'd wake up every morning and could look at the Swiss Alps outside my window. I'd take a walk to the lake and sometimes just think about things. It was beautiful. Picturesque. I'd have to say as a whole, Switzerland became my home.
When I initially got home, I was a bit out of sorts. First of all, the jet lag seemed impossible to overcome. I would wake up at 6:30am (really 12:30pm according to Switzerland time) and fall asleep around 9pm. I felt like a little child. It took me probably two weeks to fully get over the jet lag. Another thing that was a challenge was resisting the urge to take pictures every time I ate. I got so used to doing that for my blog, it just seemed natural to continue taking pictures haha.
When I was abroad, I had three and a half months of missing my boyfriend. Three and a half months imagining the moment we would finally be together again and I could be in his arms. I loved him so much and could not wait to be with him. But when I got home, I soon found out it wasn't the same for him. Shortly after being home, my boyfriend broke up with me. I'd be lying if I said that it didn't hurt and if I said that it doesn't hurt even now. It made me question a lot of things... but one thing it will never make me question is if it was worth it to go abroad. That will always be a yes. I have no regrets about my decision to go abroad, no regrets about my time over there, but it doesn't mean I'm not sad about losing my boyfriend. All that being said, he is a truly great person and I will always want the best for him.
No more about that. I got to see all my friends again!! It was so good being able to catch up with all of them. I still have some people I need to hang out with! And also since it was the holidays (I was home for Thanksgiving and Christmas) I got to see most of my family as well! I had a 7 week break. I went down to Virginia Tech for a couple days, but mostly stayed at home. And gosh, it felt so nice being home! Sleeping in my own bed. Seeing everyone again. Going to the gym! (Thank goodness! I was out of shape!) And just everything.
It's hard though, at times I really miss it all. I miss the freedom of going where ever I want. On the weekends it's strange to just stay home and not be traveling. I miss the people who went abroad with me. I miss the amazing food while traveling. And I really miss my town, Riva San Vitale.
My views have changed. I feel more open to the world around me, more experienced in real life situations, and more grateful for everyone and everything in my life. I'm hopeful about my next chapter. I don't know where my life will take me, but I'm open to where ever it may go. I have a year and a half of school left, so I'll be focusing on that for now. But after that, who knows? I hope at some point I get the chance to travel more. Go to different countries and continents. See more of the world out there. I hope I can go back to some of the places I saw abroad as well, but it would be very hard to choose where to go back to since I enjoyed every place.
But for now, I'm content. I'm so happy with my time studying abroad. What a positive influence it was for me. I made the most of my trip and I just can't believe it's over... it's unreal.
I also can't believe this is my last blog post either. Ciao!
Au Revoir! Adeus! Adiós! Auf Wiedersehen! Afscheid! Sbohem! Goodbye!